Malicious Minds

Mainstream and non-mainstream?

It has always occurred to me that I always have different likings and interests compared to others. So in order to not be marginalised, I blend in and act the way most people act. In this case, lets call it mainstream people and non-mainstream people (thanks Zach for giving me the idea).

To begin with, I never understood why some people love following the crowd. I think it’s a ridiculous thing to do. But then again, if you chose not to do what everyone does, you’ll stand as the odd one out. Like for an example, I’m gonna be really honest here, I’m not as crazy over chocolates as I may seem to. I only do that because it’s what most girls are. I don’t know why I do that. Every time I do that I feel like I’m only deceiving myself and not others. I know, call me a fake if you want to. It’s true anyways.=S

Some people might say to hell with what others think, just be yourself. But what if being yourself equates to being left out and isolated from the rest? Can you live being totally alone without someone you can really relate to? I know it might contradict with what I previously said that when you don’t share similar interests with others but you blend in with the rest and pretend to have the same interests, how can you relate with that someone? Okay, in my opinion, if you’re constantly exposed and experiencing the same thing over and over again you will develop either a liking or dislike for it. But only to a certain extent.

Hmm… Let’s say you don’t listen to mainstream music but most of your friends do, so when you guys gather, you can’t share what you listen to with them because it ends in a conflict between interests. That’s me. I’ve stopped listening to mainstream music. I don’t care what’s the newest rap or Beyonce song. But there are times with friends when I find it difficult because out of a group I’m the odd one out. I don’t know. It’s a feeling of being disconnected.

That is one of the reasons why sometimes I choose to just fall in with the crowd. To just cling on to the nearest person I see and just follow wherever that person goes. I do get the urge sometimes to just forget about trying to blend in and be myself but then at the same time I know that I would be a loner if I do so.

I’m laughing at myself here. I made a post in my other blog  saying that in order to be different, just be yourself. I’m doing the opposite. I’m trying hard not to be too different. Don’t get me wrong, I do want to stand out, but not way over the edge. It’ll be lonely. I can imagine the feeling, standing in the outer ring of a field with the mainstream people in the middle. I would gaze longingly at them wishing I could join them or at least they join me. But hmm … I think it would be better if I stepped a little closer towards them.

Ahh…now I see more people who’re like me, those who too aren’t part of the mainstream people. Some people whom I can actually relate to. Hehe. You guys know who you are =).

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