Malicious Minds

Okay okay okay… I just got my very own PS2 and right now i just cant stop playing it!!! I play till very early in the morning and now i’m facing lack of sleep problem. Headaches everyday!!! Ahhh… I just need to practise self control and everything will be fine. But the problem is i cant seem to control the…the…urge to play. Maybe this will pass after school starts. I probably wont have enough time to even glance at my PS2. Probably.

Anyway…kinda tired already. Buh bye…. nitezz…

This is a song which i find quite meaningful to me…

I’VE NEVER BEEN TO ME

Hey lady, you lady, cursing at your life
You’re a discontented mother and a regimented wife
I’ve no doubt you dream about the things you’ll never do
But, I wish someone had talked to me
Like I wanna talk to you…..

Oh, I’ve been to Georgia and California and anywhere I could run
I took the hand of a preacher man and we made love in the sun
But I ran out of places and friendly faces because I had to be free
I’ve been to paradise but I’ve never been to me

Please lady, please lady, don’t just walk away
‘Cause I have this need to tell you why I’m all alone today
I can see so much of me still living in your eyes
Won’t you share a part of a weary heart that has lived million lies….

Oh, I’ve been to Niece and the Isle of Greece while I’ve sipped champagne on a yacht
I’ve moved like Harlow in Monte Carlo and showed ‘em what I’ve got
I’ve been undressed by kings and I’ve seen some things that a woman ain’t supposed to see
I’ve been to paradise, but I’ve never been to me

[spoken]
Hey, you know what paradise is?
It’s a lie, a fantasy we create about people and places as we’d like them to be
But you know what truth is?
It’s that little baby you’re holding, it’s that man you fought with this morning
The same one you’re going to make love with tonight
That’s truth, that’s love……

Sometimes I’ve been to crying for unborn children that might have made me complete
But I took the sweet life, I never knew I’d be bitter from the sweet
I’ve spent my life exploring the subtle whoring that costs too much to be free
Hey lady……
I’ve been to paradise, (I’ve been to paradise)
But I’ve never been to me

(I’ve been to Georgia and California, and anywhere I could run)
I’ve been to paradise, never been to me
(I’ve been to Neice and the isle of Greece while I’ve sipped champagne on a yacht)
I’ve been to paradise, never been to me
(I’ve been to cryin’ for unborn children that might have made me complete)
I’ve been to paradise, never been to me
(I’ve been to Georgia and California, and anywhere I could run)
I’ve been to paradise, never been to me

Hello again… Been a while since i last updated my blog… Well…anyway the most recent happening is me finally getting my PMR results. Guess what i got? I got something which is unexpected by most people. I got 6A’s 1B. Got that damn bloody B for BM. Everyone was expecting me to get straight A’s. But i didn’t. And those people who were not expected to get straight A’s…got it! *sigh*

Anyway it’s Christmas already!!! And guess what…i’m stuck at home with no one except my little doggie. But she’s too busy napping. So i guess i’m really having a sad and lonely Christmas. But anyways… Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to everyone!!!

AHHHHH….It’s finally announced the results for PMR 2005 will be tomorrow, 22nd December. Less than 24 hours to go. OMG…I can’t believe the day will ever come. Now it is…i was sooooo excited for it but now i’m so nervous already. My hands are freezing cold as i type this and it’s shaking. I’m sure i’m not gonna be able to sleep tonight. Tomorrow will be doom’s day.

Right now i’m having a problem about deciding what to wear for tomorrow. School uniform or casual clothes? School uniform would probably be the best thing to wear because then the teachers won’t be able to nagg about the way we dress like for example, "that jeans is too tight", "your t shirt is too small". "you should have worn long sleeves" and so on. But if i wear school uniform, i would look like a nerd or geek or something. I think most people would wear their house clothes.  So i would be the odd one out. Then again, it would be a quick one. We’ll just go in and get our results and cry or laugh and then we’ll be outta there. Hmm…still haven’t made up my mind. Will ask friends later. Ok then…have to go. Wish me luck people!!

Hey..it’s been such a long time since i updated my blog. Life here isn’t very good now. Don’t really feel like coming online much. The bad thing that happened recently is that my parents somehow don’t like my bf. I brought him back one day and my dad didnt really approve of us sitting beside each other. So it went like this for the whole day…my dad spying on us and so on. And it so happened that he saw me being ‘manja’ with my darling and he got angry when he say my bf trying to touch me. *sigh* so after he went back…my parents both talked to me about keeping distance from a guy and so on…bla bla bla.. but then my dad said the worst thing.. he said i couldn’t bring my darling to the house again. i was really so devastated. i think i cried enough tears to fill one cup. This has been going on for two days and my dad still don’t wanna let me be happy again. He even said i shouldn’t continue with my bf. *sigh* Why is it so unfair? He wasn’t like this with my previous ex. But why now? Why doesn’t he approve of my current whom i have more feelings for? Life is just so unfair. Argh…!!