Malicious Minds

Hello. Wow. Been quite a while hasn’t it. Haven’t been updating my blog for such a long time. I dunno. Can’t seem to find the time and urge to update.

Also another thing which kinda dampened my mood to update is that Friendster blog is currently giving me lots of problems uploading pictures. Sigh.

I’m thinking maybe I should switch to a new blog host. Yeah.

Anyhow I shall make another attempt in trying to update my desolated blog.

Starting with Teddy coming home from Philippines and me bringing him to Haagen Dazs as a surprise I had in store for him. We had the chocolate fondue because I also was dying to try it. The chocolate was…heavenly.

Oh and yeah, since Teddy wasn’t around to celebrate my birthday with me, he bought me an exta huge birthday present!

Meet Binky! A furry pink, fat and round hedgehog plushie. He’s so cute! Teddy keeps insisting that Binky’s a girl because he’s pink. But I like my plushies to be males =D.

Weeee! Thanks Teddy!

I love you!

Can never get enough of spending time with you.

Last week, my parent’s took me and my bro out for a high tea session at the Bintang Revolving Restaurant at the Federal Hotel in Bukit Bintang. It was pretty nice and the food was not bad. There was a lot of variety.    

Lol, looks like I ate a lot. Was so stuffed I couldn’t stand up and walk properly. Haha. But that was last monday.

For the past 2 days, I fell very sick. It just happened overnight, I got such a bad sorethroat and searing fever. Plus I had a horrible headache. Ugh.

But no worries, I’m fine now. Just that my throat is still a little sore. =)

Ooh yeah! Something awesome and great is gonna happen tomorrow! Will update once it happens =P.

I was listening to a new album I downloaded and the lyrics from this particular song caught my attention. I think it’s absolutely so romantic and sweet (aww..)

Anyway, I was playing around with Photoshop and decided to use the lyrics. The image was taken from stock.xchng.

I really love the lyrics from Brightwood’s songs. They’re sweet and meaningful without being too cheesy. They also sound awesome. Very melodic and soft and emo. I love the way the singer sings with so much emotion.

The album art shows a forest enveloped by frosty ice cold night. I think it clearly represents the musical journey Brightwood will bring you. 

In short, I would give it a 8/10.

Soft. Melodic. Serene. Picturesque. Absolutely beautiful.

P.S. It’s indie. You won’t find any mainstream elements in it. =D

Last night, I was so dead exhausted and for some reason I don’t know why but I suddenly felt like writing a poem after not having done any in a long time.

So I opened a fresh new document file and started typing. It’s weird that all these weird, abstract words suddenly came out from my head. Because I don’t really usually write like this. Plus I was really really tired, I couldn’t really think very much so I just let my hand typed freely. Only occasionally correcting the grammar or spelling mistakes.

It just feels so silent

Not that there is no sound

The presence of silence

From the very core to near the surface

Noises revolve around me

So very elusively, not touching me

Anticipation floats above me

Just out of my reach

I can almost taste it

Feel its gripping embracement

Possession is still far from grasp

Wisps of it lingering near the tips of my fingers

If you do capture my meaning

Keep it within yourself

I am but one who feels alone

And with silence around me

One who awaits the return of another

With much great anticipation

For the anticipated other

Shall lift the silence from within

Lol yeah. That was it. I half love it and half have no idea what I was trying to say through that poem. But I do know of course that it’s based on someone. =)

Hi, Teddy if you do read this, I’m already missing you so much. It’s barely been hours since you left and I already miss you so much. =/

But please do know that I’m happy for you. I know it means a great deal to you and I am supportive of it. My TeddyBear sooo smart, got hand-picked to fly over to Philippines to save the company. Super Teddy! Wee!

Still, I won’t say it’s not sad for me. I am thankful it’s only for 2 months and not like 6 months. However, the 2 months is gonna feel awfully long and lonely for me especially during the nights. I’m gonna miss the comfy hugs and kisses. (>.<)

Every time I think about it, I can’t help it but tears well up in my eyes. It’s because it’s all so sudden that makes it a hundred times more harder. It’s so cliche. Like what you see in books or movies…

“I’m going off to ____.”

“When?”

“I have to leave by tomorrow.”

And tomorrow has arrived and passed. I’m gonna miss you so bad. Please take care over there and be good alright. 

Also…

Thank you for the great day out shopping I had with you yesterday. 

Thank you for buying me those lovely dresses.

Thank you for telling me repeatedly that I looked hot yesterday.

Thank you for your time taken to travel here to see me.

Thank you for comforting me last night when I cried.

Thank you for staying over with me even though you had to sleep with your contact lens on.

Thank you for being there for me when I woke up.

Thank you again for a wonderful but short day spent with you today before you had to leave.

Thank you for holding my hand and comforting me while on the way to the airport.

Thank you for letting me kiss you goodbye before you left.

And lastly, thank you for doing this. I know in the long run, you’re doing it for us.

I’ll see you soon Teddy. And don’t forget to email me. I love you lots.

“Though miles may come between us,

You’re always and forever on my mind.

When you go don’t forget to write  …”

- “Don’t Forget To Write” by Last Winter

So yeah I downloaded Story Of The Year’s newest album The Black Swan. At first I thought maybe this album would be like many of the others, (just for collection), but then I found myself listening to it over and over again.

Track listing:-

1. “Choose Your Fate” - 3:34
2. “Wake Up” - 3:32
3. “The Antidote” - 4:00
4. “Tell Me (P.A.C.)” - 3:59
5. “Angel In the Swamp” - 4:29
6. “The Black Swan”- 3:45
7. “Message to the World” - 4:04
8. “Apathy Is a Deathwish” - 3:31
9. “We’re Not Gonna Make It” - 4:03
10. “Cannonball” - 3:50
11. “Terrified” - 4:00
12. “Pale Blue Dot (Interlude)” - 1:06
13. “Welcome to Our New War” - 5:11

The one thing that could make all the bad luck in the past week fade into nothing is repelling against me.

I’m just so tired of all the let-downs. I learned that the “hope” is the one that kills you most, not the fact that you’ve been let down.

From now on, I’m not gonna hope (too much) for anything. I’ll just things happen on its own accord. I’m seriously tired of it already. 

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I’m feeling better now. Guess who instead cheered me up?

Gir!

I’m gonna go order pizza and watch some episodes of Invader Zim. Haven’t watched it in a long time.

P.S. My birthday is coming, (in about a month) so if anyone can actually manage to get me a Gir plushie toy, I’ll be your bestest friend in the world for a very very very long time. =D

As to relate to the title, I have been having the worst ever week from hell. The experience is relatively new to me and I do not like it.

Sigh, I sure hope I do manage to survive through it. I’m not really sure how it started but I do recall waking up on Monday morning feeling so exhausted and uninterested with anything other than my bed. But I suppose that was because last weekend I went to a camp and came back with my whole body aching. However, since the moment I opened my eyes on Monday, I could sense something already. 

Then Tuesday, I had classes from 8A.M to 5P.M (although usually we end by 4.30PM). Ugh. I really hate Tuesdays. Plus I was still kinda tired and sore from the camp. So I practically dragged myself from class to class till it was time to head home. Oh, but the worst for the day has yet to come.

It was during the night and for some very minor reason I burst and went hysterical on Teddy. Yeah, and that led to a little fight. But that wasn’t gonna be the last.

On Wednesday, it started out alright. Class started at 2PM and we watched a movie during class. It was only at night that whatever was in my hell was let loose. Another huge row with Teddy and this time with a little extra something that’s gonna be lingering in my head and haunting me for a very long time. Ugh. 

The next day, Thursday was pretty much the aftermath of what happened on Wednesday night. Couldn’t help thinking about it and ended up pretty much distracted until we went to celebrate Steph’s belated birthday where I got to loosen up a bit and forget about it until later on.

And today, Friday. Again I felt like I woke up the wrong side of the bed. Again dragged myself through Economics class and chose to skip belly dance class ‘coz I was most definitely not in the mood to shake my ass around. 

So I packed my stuff and headed back home to Sg Long. Was quite happy to be home, thought that maybe my unlucky streak would stay in Sunway and not follow me back. But oh, I was wrong. Again another minor argument with Teddy. 

Sigh. I hate this. The past week has been the worst ever. So, to whomever “up there” that I have somewhat offended, I apologize and now please put an end to my sh*tty days.

P.S. There were many other little bad things that happened during the week that I didn’t include in the post above. It would too depressing to type.

Anyhow, I’m gonna retire for the night. Am feeling really exhausted today. Perhaps after a good night’s sleep, the bad luck streak will just fade away into nothing.

Nite all.

So it’s a public holiday today and so far for the whole day I have done nothing but watched the entire season 4 of Friends (not that it’s a bad thing, I quite enjoyed it) but the point is I am not allowed to go out.

Yep. My parents are quite well…paranoid is quite a strong word, I’ll settle with cautious. They gave me strict orders not to leave my apartment and stay put until further notice until things regarding DSAI (Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim), BN, our prime minister and all sorts are settled. Sigh. Yeah, so I’m pretty much stuck at home with not much to do.

Oh yeah, about the last post, I sorta mentioned that I had a “surprise.” Well just to make things easier, the surprise is I got myself a PSP! Weeee! Yup.

But still it gets pretty boring being all alone here. =(

Anyway, it’s dinner time. I’ll go make something for myself. But then again, maybe I shouldn’t since I am supposed to be on a diet. Argh. I’ll just get a drink or something. Yep. That’s right. A drink shall do. And I will not cheat on my diet. I will not. I promise. =D

P.S.

This creme brulee from Italiannies is to die-for. Omg. I’m so craving for it now. =(

Weeeee…Friendster finally has more customisable themes. I changed my theme to this green grassy one because I think it looks pretty neat and sweet =).

So yes, a lot has been happening lately.

Firstly, I got a little surprise gift from Teddy!

Pooh bear!

Teddy knowing how much I adore Winnie the Pooh, gave me a mini Pooh Bear wearing a silly hat tied to a box of Belgium chocolates. Thank you Teddie! Love you!

Secondly, I bought Teddy a prezzie too! Say hi to Fluffles!

I’m not really sure what kinda animal is he, but I think he’s just too cute! So I got it for Teddy! =D

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Anyway, lots has been happening at college too. We went for another round of fine dining invited by Zanne’s friend in Taylor’s Hospitality School. This time there were four of us including Jacinta. The food was prepared by first year students, so yeah, you know =P.

Menu of the day

Started off with some bread and butter

We ordered a mocktail each. Quite nice. 7/10

Appetiser: Mornay Crab Cakes 7.5/10

Main course: Roast Beef With Yorkshire Pudding & Gravy 5/10

The beef was kinda thick and tough. Felt like chewing on rubber.

Dessert: Swiss Roll With Vanilla Sauce 6/10

So that was pretty much it. I would say this time the appetiser was better than our first fine dining experience. But other than that, the first was better. The beef was soooo tough. I think the cook sliced it too thick and therefore couldn’t be cooked properly. But anyway, this coming Wednesday I’m being invited again to another lunch service by a friend who’s in the scholarship club. So…yay! Can’t wait for it. =P

Mmm I got a little bit more to post about our recent Merdeka event organised by us at S.A.Y Club but I’m kinda beat already. So maybe next time I’ll post the pics and a little description of it. And ooh yeah, plus I would show you guys what I bought recently for myself. =P

Nite all.